Eating what I want

Today starts my journey of eating exactly what I want, when I want it. I followed this way of eating yesterday for about half the day, and I was shocked to see my weight actually down a few pounds in the morning. Not half bad!

I worked a night shift yesterday, so I woke up about 45 minutes ago. Were I less tired, I would have taken a picture of my meal. It was gorgeous!

This morning, I woke up and I really thought to myself, "What do I want to eat?" I grabbed my loaf of fresh crusty italian bread (chicago style) and cut a thin-ish slice. I drizzled it lightly with olive oil and topped it with sea salt and fresh ground pepper. I then proceeded to make a deconstructed sandwich with 2 ounces (roughly, no measuring here anymore!) of medium rare thinly sliced top sirloin, a couple tablespoons on bruschetta topping, and about an ounce (or more!) of feta cheese.

Oh. My. God. It was delicious. I haven't allowed myself to enjoy bread - really enjoy it - in years. It was far better than my best memory, I may have given myself a little too much feta, as I ended up with a thumb-sized portion being eaten plain simply because I couldn't eat it all on the bread. A little feta goes a long way! But it was creamy and imported from Greece - and tasted like heaven. I foresee some tomato, cucumber, and feta salads in the near future. Drizzled in Greek olive oil. Mmmmmmm.

The hardest thing for me is that my brain keeps trying to guess at the calories. I keep labeling things in portion sizes and trying to count it out. I do stop myself; this isn't a healthy way to think, after all. The whole point of my experiment is "What happens if I stop stressing and live?" Stressing isn't getting my anywhere!

I'm going to make some soda for the rest of the day and perhaps pick out a few little snacks for work in case I get a craving. I think 2-3 dolmas and a small bag of dried pineapple will be sufficient since I only plan to work 5 hours today. That way, if I get hungry, I have something sweet and something savory that I love. I think in a few days when I need to shop again, I'll be picking up some tomatoes, cucumbers, and dark chocolate. I wish it were summer - cherries sound fairly incredible as well. I really like the thought of buying whatever it is I crave.